|
Sunday, January 20
- just got back home from work. and im fucking tired now. chinese new year is coming soon in just a few days time. and, i only got one pathetic new shirt. which i doubt i'll have the chance to wear unless i go out to somewhere nice. like town, not lot 1. i've no time to go shopping. or should i say, no money to buy any clothes for myself. sometimes i just hate new year. i had to work during this coming cny to earn extra bucks to feed myself and my family. i just hate this realistic world. everything needs money like, money for education. if you have no money, you can't even further your studies. the government is saying, 'oh, we'll subsidise the school fees so that the lower income group can afford it.' but where in the hell is all the subsidation programs? even if you did subsidise, it's only, 10%, and with a few thousand dollars of fees, will 10% make a big difference? it just smashes all my hopes and dreams to go on further studying after ITE if i can't get into poly. and plus, there's this somebody who believes in god that god will make us rich someday. are we any richer now? we still starving sometimes in need of money and food. mrs lee always say, suffer now so that you can enjoy later. but all the suffering that i had is enough! sometimes i couldn't even tolerate it. like today, i'm just so fucking tried after i ended my work. i'm always while ppl are outside shopping for their CNY clothes or dating their bf, or have wonderful meet ups with their friends. sometimes i really wish i can do all that. but i'm stuck in a situation which i can't get out, unless i strike TOTO/4D/SINGAPORE SWEEP. i just wish i can just get out of poverty in the future so that i need not be troubled about money anymore. but the only way out of poverty is studying. and hell, i can't even get to further my studies when i don't even have the money to do so. some people are just so annoying and stupid and irritating. when they have the chance to study, they make dam lots of noises and excuses to their teachers or parents. but when they lose the chance to study, they'll then learn how to cherish it. and usually those people who make dam lots of noise and excuses to 'studying is just so troublesome' are those kids with dam super rich parents. and they don't work during their holiday vacation. all they have to do is just ask money from their parents and they'll be given a lump sum of money to do what they want. they'll always eat in expensive restaurants, hawker centres is just a place of 'shit eating hse' to them, as restaurants are more high class then hawkers. why must the government group people according to the amount of income a family earns? why is there always a group of financially-needed people not being helped by the government? why is there always people looking down on those lower-income group people? why why why? *sigh i'm blabbering all these out because something happened while i was working just now. and hell, it made my feel dam fucking fucking frustrated. i feel much better now after venting everything out.  spoke at : 7:05 pm |
counter music blogger  i'm YINGQIN people call me ELAINE sometimes attached since 150306 turning 19 on 20 September 1989 i like any orange & white stuffs i can be very blur and irriatating at times i share all my secrets with my dearest bf i've awesome friends who will go crazy with me i've funny working mates who'll never fail to make me laugh i love counting stars at night donald duck, S.H.E and backstreet boys are my loves i love to eat, especially crab nuggets from old chang kee, streaky bacon, sausages, hams, brocolli, cakes, pringles, sushi etc and etc. i like to sleep and daydream about wonderful stuffs i like to bake cakes and cookies i hate insects, esp cockroaches & beetles i can't stand to be alone i love to be in the crowd yup, that's me.ツ  click to add ツFriendster: oooyingqinooo click here for game info. ツ
my love  MR HONG ZHENJUN he's my guy. i love you baby. ツ wishlist for her - ROM at 23 yr old - marry at 25 yr old - photo album of our photos - SLIM DOWN and weigh 48kg - stay healthy - change new phone - S.H.E alarm clock - more woodcraft toys - be tanned - GUCCI bag - get to meet S.H.E - put braces - more Rainie Inspired Singlesided Earrings - Nike hawaii shoe - get rid of those scars =X - go overseas with baobei - get my driving licence - be able to fulfill all my dreams - be ultra super rich - be happy everyday wishlist for him - ROM at 23 yr old - marry at 25 yr old - more nike shoes - electric toothbrush - feather necklace - white psp slim - ps3 80gb - new BIG bag - v-cube 5x5, 6x6, 7x7 - cool black braclet - good results in poly - slim down and weigh 80kg - baobei to be happy forever - more shirts, jeans and pants - be ultra super rich important days - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 900th day [11 08 08] - 29th monthsary [15 08 08] - 30th monthsary [15 09 08] - 31st monthsary [15 10 08 - 32nd monthsary [15 11 08] - 1000th day [19 11 08] - 33rd monthsary [15 01 09] to be continued.. doll doll exits Click Here. ツ photos credits
layout: lyricaltragedyicon: threemoresteps inspiration: fruitstyle |
