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Friday, March 30
- im just so fucking weak.. cuz im actually running a temperature now.. 39 degree celsius.. plus coughs and flu.. oh, what the fuck.. i did carry my umbrella today while i was on the way home when it was raining so kuku heavily.. so why am i running a temperature now? and today when i fell.. i realise that i have 2 new bruises on my arms.. oh what the fuck again.. im gonna have more scars in the future.. why am i always so careless? careless till i always got hurt while working.. why am i always so stupid and toot tat i got bullied by ppl? why muz i always let ppl who love me worry for me? haish~ i just wonder how am i gonna work tml.. 7 hours of work.. school's gonna reopen soon.. and im be so so so alone.. cuz jing hong's going poly to study aerospace.. and joanna don come sch so often de and she's even planning to quit.. and im not tat close to mira they all.. guess im onli left with teck huat.. cuz he's also taking the elective taxation.. but im oso not close to him.. what the hell? i just hate school so much now.. i miss my secondary school life.. i miss my secondary friends.. how i wish i can be stuck my secondary school life time forever.. cuz i noe im truely happy there.. i just don noe how am i gonna survive being alone when sch starts.. guess i have to learn to be independent bahx.. i hate being alone.. i just hope and pray hard that all my lesson ends at 12pm.. cuz then i can escape from my loneliness by going home or going to work.. i wan some happiness in school.. tat's all i want.. but never can it be achieved.. what the fuck? i used to look forward to school days.. now, i hate it.. i prefer work than school.. oh, what the hell is happening to me? but work nowadays sux too.. my credit and reward is gone.. well, not totally gone.. i'll still be receiving cash money from cold storage but not as much as before.. and i need tat dam bloody money so much now.. cuz my shoe is spoiled as i just slipped and fell.. and my the other shoe has also spoiled as it has a big kuku shoe at the sole there.. oh, what the fuck? where the hell am i gonna find the money to buy shoes? guess i should just concentrate on doing well in my studies and not care so much bout other stuffs bahx.. cuz then i can get on to my aim in life.. and plus.. i should not let those who love me so much to worry for me.. especially my baobei.. he has done so much for me.. i cannot afford to make him sad.. cannot.. cuz i love him dearly.. alright.. enuff of my rants.. im just feeling so sick now.. off to sleep.. Labels: IM JUST SO WEAK AND LOUSY  spoke at : 8:39 pm |
counter music blogger  i'm YINGQIN people call me ELAINE sometimes attached since 150306 turning 19 on 20 September 1989 i like any orange & white stuffs i can be very blur and irriatating at times i share all my secrets with my dearest bf i've awesome friends who will go crazy with me i've funny working mates who'll never fail to make me laugh i love counting stars at night donald duck, S.H.E and backstreet boys are my loves i love to eat, especially crab nuggets from old chang kee, streaky bacon, sausages, hams, brocolli, cakes, pringles, sushi etc and etc. i like to sleep and daydream about wonderful stuffs i like to bake cakes and cookies i hate insects, esp cockroaches & beetles i can't stand to be alone i love to be in the crowd yup, that's me.ツ  click to add ツFriendster: oooyingqinooo click here for game info. ツ
my love  MR HONG ZHENJUN he's my guy. i love you baby. ツ wishlist for her - ROM at 23 yr old - marry at 25 yr old - photo album of our photos - SLIM DOWN and weigh 48kg - stay healthy - change new phone - S.H.E alarm clock - more woodcraft toys - be tanned - GUCCI bag - get to meet S.H.E - put braces - more Rainie Inspired Singlesided Earrings - Nike hawaii shoe - get rid of those scars =X - go overseas with baobei - get my driving licence - be able to fulfill all my dreams - be ultra super rich - be happy everyday wishlist for him - ROM at 23 yr old - marry at 25 yr old - more nike shoes - electric toothbrush - feather necklace - white psp slim - ps3 80gb - new BIG bag - v-cube 5x5, 6x6, 7x7 - cool black braclet - good results in poly - slim down and weigh 80kg - baobei to be happy forever - more shirts, jeans and pants - be ultra super rich important days - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 900th day [11 08 08] - 29th monthsary [15 08 08] - 30th monthsary [15 09 08] - 31st monthsary [15 10 08 - 32nd monthsary [15 11 08] - 1000th day [19 11 08] - 33rd monthsary [15 01 09] to be continued.. doll doll exits Click Here. ツ photos credits
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