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Tuesday, January 16
- sch as usual today.. went to NP to take bus home after sch.. then since hubby's presentation ends at 11.40 today.. so we went home tgt lo.. =D and i think i got cheated 10 bucks while waiting for hubby at NP.. kuku hell~ i don noe why i wanna donate the money when im already so so so broke now.. and what can i do now even though im regreting it?? and who can i blame? i blame none but myself for being so stupid to donate the money.. and i think i must be the dumbest idiot of my generation to fall for this kind of so called donations.. i don noe wad the hell is happening to me lahx.. im like suddenly so so so lost.. and my legs wobbled when I see trouble.. cuz i can no longer stand up like before and face it.. i chose to hide and escape from it.. i think i've fallen hard this time round ever since sch starts.. and i reckon it will take some time to get back again.. there are so just many things that i have to come to terms with, and accept them.. but i just can't seem to accept it.. and i will never want to be a spectator of my own collapse.. though there is a phrase failure leads to success.. but i've already failed so many times.. and if i had.. - then i'll not be in ITE now.. - i would have done well in o levels and be in poly doing business studies now like hubby.. - i will have been more sensible and will think twice before i say or do anything.. - and i'll not be in debt now.. i just don want the word failure to be ever in my life again.. and so wad if i work so so so hard to earn money.. it'll all be gone to pay debts.. guess i'll have to pray tonight.. i pray for god's light and grace, for a strength and wisdom to walk me through this.. and also, i pray for forgiveness for all whom i have sinned against and whom have sinned against me.. i think i need a time off or something? at this moment, whoever i talked to will make them unhappy or angry or sad.. like just now.. i think hubby and i nearly fight.. =X but we're ok now le.. hubby.. im sorry.. the smack head game.. next time don play le.. sorry to have smack ur head so hard.. i love u lotx lotx.. muacks.. Labels: can't read my mind.., I am unwritten  spoke at : 1:28 pm |
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