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Saturday, December 9
- i slept at 9plus ytd night and woke up at 11am today.. woo~ let me count how many hours i slp.. hmmmmmm.. from 9plus ytd night to 11am this morning is a total of 14 hours sia.. OMG ~ 14 hours lehx.. i'm just such a piggu.. =X hahas.. i had a bad dream last night.. realli bad.. i dream that LU died of a car accident.. OMG ~ he died at that instant when the car knocked him.. i cried super jia lat in the dream.. cuz im gonna lose him.. anyway.. it's just a dream.. and i hope it's not gonna happen in real life.. cuz i don wan to lose LU.. I LOVE YOU MR HONG ZHENJUN !! i'm now watching pokemon now with my sis.. woo~ they're having a pokemon match.. i hope ash wins.. =D and there are just so many new pokemons that i've nebber see before lahx.. =X nebbermind.. just watch lor.. cuz it's nice.. going work later le.. =X sian half lahx.. im just so lazy to go work today.. but i have to go.. and im gonna pass boss my holiday work schedule today.. i hope he approves my leaves.. cuz those are the days that im suppose to go out with my friends and LU de.. and i hope 30 nov de leave can be approved.. cuz i realli realli realli wanna go yo-yo with LU.. =X LU will be coming over to my hse tml.. and my mummy will be cooking chicken rice.. =D it's been so long since i've eaten the chicken rice she cooked.. later gonna plan wad to do tml when LU come over to my hse.. =D and gonna study a lil' bit of bad debts and doubtful debts.. cuz ytd pon sch.. then cher already started combining those 2 debts tgt le.. so muz study a lil' if not i'll sure be super lost on tue when she teach.. =X yup.. tat's it for today le bahx.. BYE !! LU.. thanks for the heart to heart talk ytd night.. u just noe me so well lahx.. i just cannot hide anything from u when i have problems.. just one look from u and u noe wad's going on.. =X all these precious moment with you by my side.. i speak gift from heaven.. I don't know how I found you.. I'm thankful that I have found a love so true.. To hold and to keep forever.. In my heart I can no longer hold inside all of the love i used to hide.. I'll always be with you until the very end.. In this world.. There is no place I'll rather be.. You are my life, my soul, my boy.. You're the One Till the End.. All my friends surround me says that it'll be gone too soon.. LU, I'm gonna make them see.. We've found our way back home.. I promise that.. We'll always be till the End.. I LOVE YOU.. happy 8th months and 25 days.. =D have u ever try putting urself in other people's shoes? try to understand more about the people around u.. dun always think that u are always right. cuz ppl do make mistakes.. going around blaming others is not the solution.. MY THOUGHTS I want a time off or something.. My mind is twirling and I just could not get somethings off my mind and it's rather irritating.. I blame myself for being stupid.. I want to rest on something real and it would make me better.. I do not want to forget things I want to remember and i want to learn from my mistakes and prevent it from happening again.. But it seems as though it is coming back to me again.. If everyday I feel like crying, shouting, it is obvious that something is terribly wrong with me.. IF you were to ask me what had happened.. I can't tell u cuz I don even know what exactly had happened to me.. It's always like this.. At this moment, whoever I talked to will make them unhappy or angry or sad.. My face itch, my body is hot.. I want everything off me.. My eyes are wet, shoulders are tensed.. is this symtoms of stress or troubles or even depression? My legs wobbled when I see trouble.. I can no longer stand up and face it.. Have I learn not to be independent? Or am I thinking of something else? Lately, I relieve stress by working, where I can divert all my attention on work and not to think so much.. Though I am stupid at times but I hope most of you guys can understand.. I need to relieve everything.. There's no PANADOL for such ILLNESSES.. can i understand my own mind?? NO..  Labels: IM MRS HONG-CHUA YINGQIN LE.. =D - [CONFUSED ~]  spoke at : 11:14 am |
counter music blogger  i'm YINGQIN people call me ELAINE sometimes attached since 150306 turning 19 on 20 September 1989 i like any orange & white stuffs i can be very blur and irriatating at times i share all my secrets with my dearest bf i've awesome friends who will go crazy with me i've funny working mates who'll never fail to make me laugh i love counting stars at night donald duck, S.H.E and backstreet boys are my loves i love to eat, especially crab nuggets from old chang kee, streaky bacon, sausages, hams, brocolli, cakes, pringles, sushi etc and etc. i like to sleep and daydream about wonderful stuffs i like to bake cakes and cookies i hate insects, esp cockroaches & beetles i can't stand to be alone i love to be in the crowd yup, that's me.ツ  click to add ツFriendster: oooyingqinooo click here for game info. ツ
my love  MR HONG ZHENJUN he's my guy. i love you baby. ツ wishlist for her - ROM at 23 yr old - marry at 25 yr old - photo album of our photos - SLIM DOWN and weigh 48kg - stay healthy - change new phone - S.H.E alarm clock - more woodcraft toys - be tanned - GUCCI bag - get to meet S.H.E - put braces - more Rainie Inspired Singlesided Earrings - Nike hawaii shoe - get rid of those scars =X - go overseas with baobei - get my driving licence - be able to fulfill all my dreams - be ultra super rich - be happy everyday wishlist for him - ROM at 23 yr old - marry at 25 yr old - more nike shoes - electric toothbrush - feather necklace - white psp slim - ps3 80gb - new BIG bag - v-cube 5x5, 6x6, 7x7 - cool black braclet - good results in poly - slim down and weigh 80kg - baobei to be happy forever - more shirts, jeans and pants - be ultra super rich important days - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 900th day [11 08 08] - 29th monthsary [15 08 08] - 30th monthsary [15 09 08] - 31st monthsary [15 10 08 - 32nd monthsary [15 11 08] - 1000th day [19 11 08] - 33rd monthsary [15 01 09] to be continued.. doll doll exits Click Here. ツ photos credits
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